OMG Hypnotherapy

So I've seen a hypnotherapist twice in the last two weeks regarding my weight loss. Our goals are to help me not be a compulsive eater of things, ESPECIALLY JUNK. Both session focused on different aspects but LET ME TELL YOU... I have noticed MANY things beginning to change. ONE: I have been eating slower. TWO: I used to LOVE breads... one of the hardest things to not eat... the last 2 days I've not only AVOIDED the breadstics served at dinner here at work but also dug the white noodels out of my soup! I have NO desire for any simple carbohydrates or refined flours. I want to "PIG OUT" yesterday and couldn't get enough squash, zucchini, and artichoke hearts! LOL TOO FUNNY... I'm so excited and so grateful. ALSO there has been a chocolate brownie in the medroom for 3 days that I have YET to even seriously consider eating... these are HUGE changes. I need to call my hypnotherapist and let hinm know, this is soooooo amazing. Okay, well back to work lol Blessings to all on your journey to being healthier :)

 Love & Light

The Tears Just Keep Falling

I have been crying for the last hour. I feel it is a purging of pain, that I have literally carried on my body for the last 19 years. Writing that line makes the tears fall even more. So many of us are aware that there ARE deeper issues that are keeping us overweight, yet so many of us are so afraid to face them. A little over a week ago, after I had started at 319... got to 288... then back to 306... I said, ok God, I'm willing to do whatever it takes... let's sift througth this mess, this baggage that I have refused to let go of for YEARS... I was scared, so scared. I just prayed and asked God to hold my hand, keep my faith strong, and walk me through this. I went and got hypnotized on Monday, and WOW. I can see slight changes in my eating habits, I'm going back next Monday, but to be put under and hear that part of me that refuses to stop self-destructing was mind-blowing. I am dying. I am eating myself to death. It was the strangest thing, I got below 290 and went in total self-destruction mode, because I wasn't ready to let go of that pain. I am now. I can't keep doing this. I want to run, I want to get married, and have kids, I want to fit into roller coasters, I want to expierence dating. I want to be free of my self-made fortress. I thought the journey of alcohol sobriety was rough, hmph... that was just to prepare me for this. Because I HAVE TO EAT.... I just have to learn how. What do I want right now, I guess to keep crying, to keep purging, to crawl in bed and know that it doesn't feel amazing right now to let go of the shit I've been carrying, but tommorrow, I'll feel better. My own expierences have proven time and time again that change IS uncomfortable, it's painful, and yeah it sucks a lot sometimes.... but when we get through the storm... it's breathtaking, the sights, the sounds, the feelings, it's all breathtaking. I'm gonna see that, when I close my eyes tonight no matter how many tears are rolling down my face, I'm going to see 1 6 0 ........ and I'm gonna cling to that faith that God is clinging to me and carrying through this change like he has ever other one before this....

 Love & LIght

Dottie