Realizations

I just got back from the gym. I love that this websitte has a blog section, because when I started in June I was keeping my own "health journal" if you will. Here it will be nice and organized ;). Today I rode my bike like mad woman for 30 min and felt like I was going to die, but pushed forward lol. Then I had a yearning to hit the gym a few hours later and did that too. For about 2 weeks, I wasn't keeping a food journal, and I really began slacking on my daily morning ride or walk. There were days when I would eat compulsively ... like 6 peices of digorono pizza with a half gallon of chocolate milke because I was depressed. Then I was terrifed of not being able to get myself back no track. I did a lot of praying and asked God to please help me do what I need to do to get to my healthiest weight, and here I am. I'm back keeping my journal (this site helped TREMEDOUSLY) my daily excercise, and making better food choices. What I really learned though in those couple weeks was that a few days of not doing what I felt I need to do, and not sticking to my health plan.... weren't the end of the world. I didn't gain any weight, I didn't loose any... but atleast I didn't gain. The laws of attraction, and my spirituality play a huge role in my weight loss and my lifestyle changes. I believe that thoughts manifest themseleves into our daily lives, and whatever I'm focusing on will come about. Yes, there's fear at times... but that's when I ask God and Arachangel Micheal to remove it so it doesn't interfere with the progress I've made. I use the laws of attraction a lot too. I visualize myself as lean, and athletic. Because I believe that will help me achieve my goals. I can do all the sit-ups, workouts, and eat only carrots for weeks, but if I don't BELIEVE that I'm loosing weight, I won't. I'm reminded to keep my thoughts focused and the solution, that which I want to come about and let God handle the rest. Right now I'm extremely proud of myself, and very grateful to God for granting me the motivation to get up and go today, and make better food choices. I've also realized that my off days I tend to eat less, better, and excercise more. I mucnh when I'm at work, even when I bring healthier things to eat, I still munch.  I'm going to have to keep praying that God remove my obession with food, and that I remain willing to allow him to do so. The willing part is the kicker... I can ask God all day to help me with something, but if I decide to do it, my free will takes over... and God steps out of the way. May I keep myself out of the way and let God work even more miracles in my life.... 17 lbs down..... 102 to go :D

Dottie